apophatic theology for freaks
the corners of social reality are shrinking and collapsing, the geometry is clipping through itself, and corner cases like me have to make ourselves smaller. under sustained pressure and temperature, my internal structures denature, simplify, recrystallize into a homogeneous mass better suited to withstand long-term strain. mathematics asks for a lot of patience for subtleties. my panicked lizard brain predates subtleties by millions of years.
i have more patience for cooking now. sustaining and dignifying life is the only thing that seems worth the time. i make sure to be seen at church on sundays and at my weekly advisor meetings to perpetuate the rumor that i exist. humans can't make cysts on their own.